I feel flooded with insults.

And they are laughing at me like they can be mean and like I did something.  Stop saying I did something at 11.

Problem

I said earlier my dad made the arms near my body feel sag, he tried.

Problem

Now, they are playing around mentioning my future son is Chinese.  How rude is that, and what about it??  I smell something in the air.  I don't know about touching on things.  Oh, and my mom made my but feel like it went out so it like drips.  I don't feel the drip now.

I do care..

..@ my dad, try to behave.  I dunno.. maybe cleaning my room is my chore.  Other things too, of course, like feeling anguish, also my mom, etc.  All the times I suspected Ellen of doing things, which she did..  Dunno!  What I should do.  My past, like it's watched more than a well-behaved prisoner.  I can't relax my thoughts and it's like I never made the right decision.  Why would it be okay for someone to use me?  Sometimes, I feel better if I put things people do to me that bother me on my blog.  I just wanna talk about it.  I thought it would help me having to deal with it, honestly.  I feel funny thinking about it.  My idea is to have a "good" room, at least, not a palace.  Honestly, I want it to be good as in aesthetic, too.  I mean, I have a fish and it's by the TV and computer.  Maybe, I need discipline.  My guess is about being treated badly so long it is not planned to stop until maybe my life itself might adjust.  It's hard to imagine this happening to me as an older, middle-aged adult.  I have to care for people and respect my parents.

Oh yes.

Sorry for what I said outloud as an example to my dad who wanted to talk to me and then said I should draw what I said.

Prayer

That my mom does have a nice day.  +

Problem

My teeth are a little lose in front..

Not sure what was wrong.

I didn't SAY anything.  I was mad on the inside.  Sorry.  I couldn't take it at the time.  I was made to feel guilty for the past, again.

Also, no one cares about how my nose was deformed by someone through my Gramma.  Stop acting like I'm stupid shit.

Problem

They put an old lady for my bottom inside someone.  It wasn't there, before.  You are just BAD I said.

They

just tried to physically hurt me.  I was cracking my neck.

Are you still wondering..

..why I said stop?  It was evoking a negative reaction, but I don't remember what thought came to mind.

I'm sorry.

I agree, but I mean I was just upset and wanted to talk, how I'm programmed to react.  I am getting to not want to know anyone, not even my parents|dad for now.  I do keep coming back to even things out and try to live my life that I have now.  I have the feeling not to go to college but do when I think of where I used to live.

Problem

I'm being teased with an unnecessary message as though I'm still in trouble and I never should be.  Forget about my dad.  Say whatever you want about him?

Stand up for this.

When Ellen acts like she did something against us, it's wrong.

I SAID STOP

I SAID STOP

AND MY MOUSE IS HARD

I SAID STOP STOP

I'm sorry?

How did that hurt anyone's feelings?  Oh, cuz yer the guy who is upset?

If you follow my father

You will never be right, Nazi.

I'm sorry.

Did you wish I were smart enough to be quiet or busy enough not to notice?

FYI

When I said stop it, they were making noises in my room or loading something funny.

Problem

They are punishing me, too, saying I whined as a kid about being the oldest.  IT AIN'T THAT BAD AND YOU WERE THE YOUNGER GIRL.

Problem

I'm not mean.

What are you, some kind of beast?

WHAT THE *BEEP*

is that person's problem?!

I SAID STOP IT

Look.

Yes, it did have an effect, and I find this highly offensive, even though I said it was inevitable.  Does this person even matter to me anymore?  Why should I worry about them?

Problem

Why do you keep getting mad and letting people be mean to me?

STOP MAKING ME DISGUSTING.  AS A BABY?

Problem

My Instagram took awhile to work.  Maybe the vibrating on the table did it.

I feel like a prisoner..

..people forcing me to think out of the box trying to get me to bow down.

Sorry

I got violent in my thoughts, but I think I got over it.  I need to calm down and not care.

If..

Ellen is treated so well, she can't keep coming at me all the time.  They've contacted people on IMDb to talk to me.  I know she lived a sculpted life and her mom helped make her hair white.

Also

I dunno if a conversation just stopped.

Problem

I think I'm being burdened over time sneakily.  I don't really care, but I do feel it's an issue I'm being stalked.

If I made a point

You can't act all cute and say no.  I bet Ellen had this idea, too.  I said I don't care how long someone's been online, it's always there for anyone!